An Emotional Day

Well, today.  Today is soon over, and for that, I'm thankful.  I took on a project this morning that has been, literally, looming over my head for months now.  I began cleaning out the attic of my things.  This was, of course, after listing a lot of my "break-up jewelry" on Craigslist and Facebook and working my tail off at Old Navy.  I had just told a friend yesterday that I didn't think I was ready to get rid of all the small things from my relationship, not because I'd ever consider going back, but because it is sad and because it just doesn't seem right to throw away things that I had once thought I would cherish forever.  But something snapped today, and I got the inner strength to let those things go.  I did a massive purge of relationship-related items, and continue to list items with some value on the internet to try and sell.  I'm also digging through many lost memories and snapshots of my hoarding behaviors from when I was younger, throwing away three huge boxes of dirty, nasty papers and junk that have just taken up space all these years.

Yes, I am physically tired.  Yes, I am even more so emotionally tired.  I do feel like I got a good start...perhaps clearing out 1/8 of my things from the attic?  That puts a dent in the whole shebang, especially since I'm finding a lot to put in a garage sale/donate at the beginning of June.  Again, my To Do List between now and then is slightly overwhelming, but after such a productive day like today, I think I'm working in the right direction.

Let me finish my post with sharing some very inspiring words written to me by a dear family friend, of blessed memory, on the day of my Bat Mitzvah:

"You are entering one of the oldest religions that exists on earth.  Be diligent in confirming and preserving the principles and beliefs that millions have died to maintain.

In the years ahead there will be obstacles to overcome and decisions to make.  In those years be careful to cultivate a composure that will avoid a conscious or inadvertent word or phrase that will offend or denigrate a friend or acquaintance, and remember that a smile is often more effective than a retort.

As much as possible avoid unseemly or violent language, as they are degrading to the character.

Also be aware that all humanity is born equal.  It is what we do with the equality that makes us different.  When we diminish one part of humanity we are all diminished."

Pretty powerful words.  I'm very glad to have found this now, on this part of my journey.  Have a good start to your week, friends.